Sun. May 27, 2018 

I cried myself to sleep last night. The feeling of coming home alone was depressing. All I could think about was how my sister is going to react when she gets back. Needless to say, waking up this morning was hard. If I did not have to work I would stay in bed all day. But I guess it is good that I am forced to leave. That I way I do not fall deeper into the that feeling of despair. To make the mood worse it is gloomy and wet. It had been raining all morning with the sun completely covered in clouds. 

Time to get started. 

By 8:30am I was dressed sitting in front of my computer with a bowl of cereal in my hand. For some reason I cannot remember what I ate. To start the day off I watched a Logan Paul Vlogs video on YouTube. He is loud and sometimes obnoxious but he is entertaining. His stupidity makes me laugh and I appreciate he drive to be successful. A good amount of time watching him can be inspiring, it just depends on what you see.  

(photo found on Google images)

Around 8:45 I was outside in the rain trying to fit a dolly, or hand cart, into the trunk of my 2000 Honda Civic. Imagine a clown car and trying to fit an elephant in it. I did not try to hard but I also could not get it to fit. I was hoping to use it today to move a fridge but I gave up have up after 2 minutes of struggling. At times like these is when I think about dishing out a couple grand and getting an SUV. I have always wanted a Jeep Grand Cherokee so maybe before winter I will reconsider the thought. 

Finally, on the move. 

I got the lady I work with by 9:30am. On time. We spent an hour getting things together and carrying the fridge from her house, down the driveway and then loading it up. It was a small project. We had to move the table over to get it out the side door but then realized it would not fit. Then we had to move the table back over to carry it through the living room and out the front door. It was not that bad but with my sleep level low it was annoying. I’m glad her son was there to help.  

Since it was a rainy day and he had nothing to do he also worked with us. It was a blessing in disguise because I was loopy and needed backup. I did not trust myself to be able to help out fully. With him there, where I lacked he picked up. Besides that, he makes me laugh and I needed that. 

Silent drives. 

Before heading to our catering location we stopped at Dunkin‘ Donuts for breakfast. Since I had cereal earlier I just order hash browns and a pistachio frozen coffee. Two days in a row and hopefully three tomorrow. Unfortunately, it did not taste the same as yesterday. It lacked something but since I have only had it two times before, I could not tell what was missing. Either way it was still good. 

The entire 45 minute car ride to the catering I barely spoke. I could not find it in me to be social. I knew that I was being rude by staying silent but it could not be helped. I had to force myself to be part of whatever was being said with short answers or comments. 

We arrived to our destination around 11:30. It was beautiful! A lovely place for a sweet 16. Upon arrival we met the parents and could already tell they were great. For the party there was a bounce house, a massive tent to keep everyone dry, four food vendors, a DJ, and an amazing landscape view. If I could throw a party for myself there, I would.  

It’s over. 

We were not there for too long, 4 hours. We spent from 1 – 5pm serving whoever came by. Once 5:30 came around we were driving away headed back to my car. At her house about 50 mins later, we unload and I say goodbye. Normally I would have stayed a bit longer and chatted but I had enough socializing for one day. I was ready to relax in my bed. 

By 7:30 I was home, showered up and sitting in front of the computer. I began watching a Japanese drama show from 2009 called “Kami no Shizuku” yesterday. It is about wine tasting so I picked up where I left off. The show reminds me of an anime because of how dramatic it is so I really into it. I even told the lady I work with to check it out. It is a pretty great show. 

(photo found on Google images)